八月十二日 -- Chaos

10/8(一) -- 屋企無飯食, 收工約左花姐姐陪我; 今次要親身去時新! 花姐姐帶我去, 其實都唔難去呢~ 都唔係好隔涉姐~~(可能早, 又落雨噶關係, 唔係好多人)(旁邊間店居然有酸辣粉! 仲幾多人添) 一人食一個漢堡包就飽了, 花姐姐仲要食唔晒...(有d朋友話似山竹牛肉, 我就覺得最多係個口感有d似, 但係其實都唔係好似姐?) 食完去左另一間野食甜品, 大熱天時食刨冰ok呢! 個人涼晒! (中途一路行見到好多好"老店"樣o既鋪頭, 好多個樣都好似好食咁呢) 之後花姐姐帶左我去黃埔奇趣, 身為玩具人, 真係點都要去一次, 雖然無咩好買...同TKO果間都差唔多, 去過一次就算, 多謝花姐姐買左個盒蛋俾我, 係我最想要果隻呢。之後係黃埔果d商場行左陣, 係因為地點問題? 因為未去過噶問題? 定係因為花姐姐陪噶問題? 覺得黃埔都幾好行(其實諗返又無咩特別野睇, 應該係因為有人陪吧) 最後花姐姐再陪我去海邊個總站等車, 搭796X返企, 可能只係8點幾9點噶關係, 比預期中都快返到去呢, 好似半個鐘島。多謝花姐姐陪左我咁耐呢(仲要自己行返去火車站返企)。

1. 搵唔到舊電, 仲要係襟用d果舊原裝電, 唯有照出門口返工; 果然舊後備電好唔得, 講唔多2句又prompt我話無電...好彩lost and found, 晚上係屋企電視機上面搵返了。(最近好似咩都失憶, 仲要好多野都試過亂咁放搵唔返, 係唔係老人癡呆?)

11/8(二) -- Lands舊同事K聚, 慶Erica生日; 之前都同佢地唱過K, 有d唔係好唱, 其餘都唱得麻麻, 都預左無咩feel果種; 一來唔算太熟, 二來又唔係多好好玩噶人, 當係自己練歌吧(好過當係應酬); 可惜聽聞唱得OK噶心虛唔來呢。

精神狀態極低, 好多日都訓得唔好了; 心情極差, 狀態又差, 係呢d時候仲要個個都找我麻煩, 真係差到不得了; 收工有早, 搭完215X試下由科學館行去時新, 唔用同一條路, 又搵到喎, 似乎我方向感OK呢~ 唱K如我所料, 係練歌, 佢地唱時就由得佢地唱, 我有得唱時就自己唱來練下歌, 狀態一般("阿波羅"得Neway有, 總算唱過, 都唱到)。10點過dd就走, 諗住早d返屋企, 點知狀態極差之下, 極白痴地上左對頭車(相反方向), 仲要自己都唔知咩事, 搭到總站先知; 落返車, 上返同一架車返轉頭...架車個司機仲要極慢, 之後比後面o既同一號車追到, 結果比起預期遲左個幾鐘先返到屋企, 都成12點了! 係車上勁想喊, 好辛苦, 好唔開心。

2. 連續好多晚都無真正點好訓過, 好累好累。

3. 人總要面對過去, 才可以開心的去走之後的每一步; 不肯面對, 一直逃避的話, 就算遇到多美好的事物, 也不會覺得開心。

4. 好耐無提過噶小曼姐姐, 原來最近都幾大鑊呢。

5. 每日都記低想寫噶野噶好處, 就係會多好多感想, 同詳細好多呢。

6. 每個人也背負住過去; 過去的言行, 說過的話, 做過的事, 都一直牽引住現在的一舉一動; 人會變, 也不一定會言行一致, 可是, 自己回頭一看, 像是有千萬怨靈拖在後面, 拉著自己的腳; 真羨慕大部份看不到的人呢; 為什麼我不只自己, 連別人的也看得到呢? 我的觀察力, 記憶力都不用在讀書、工作上, 卻都去到了無聊的地方上?

7. 最可怕的不是別人, 是自己。

8. 做了一些自己覺得很過份, 但很多人可能覺得沒什麼的事情, 很辛苦; 不過, 人人也有情緒的。

9. 就得人、無所謂唔代表就得開心。

10. 係自己忍耐力低左, 定係因為真係太過份所以忍唔到呢? 如果係以前噶自己, 可以令我咁辛苦同忍唔到噶, 就真係對我來講好辛苦好辛苦的了。

11. 繼續覺得, 離自己愈來愈遠了; 近朱者赤近墨者黑, 世上太多可怕的人和事, 自己愈來愈把守不住, 愈來愈可怕了...還是其實根本本來就可怕, 只不過認清現實而已?

12. 真的一失去就會失去朋友、知己麼? 不相往來麼?

12/8(三) -- 之前果晚失眠, 訓得唔好, 半夜醒, 再加好早醒, 好好好辛苦, 好多日都無得點好訓過; 一早起身又訓唔到, 於是一早出門口去KT食早餐; 再食發覺個羅宋湯係唔係偷工減料左呢? 連續2次都係淡o既...之前明明好好食架嘛...食完返公司都仲早。到lunch都唔肚餓。收工應該返屋企吧。

來緊:
13/8(四) -- 好難得要OT呢! 陪同事做screening, 可能到7點島。搵下人食飯都好。
14/8(五) -- 羽毛球, 係牛池灣, 好方便呢, 不過都係10-11...
15/8(六) -- confirmed去SZ找KTG唱K, Cass男友都去呢, 今次佢地要錄音, haha, 試下玩下都好, 我就唔制了。
20/8(四) -- 小曼姐姐約返果時話劇高班的人唱K, 其實都係唔太有feel玩果種, 不過好耐無見了。
25/8(二) -- MayChan放假, 智請假同佢唱下午K?晚上同Puzzle呀WingSpenser呀Man食飯, 又係好耐無見了!

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Wind Beneath My Wings -- Bette Midler; 舊歌一首, 好鐘意噶一首英文歌, 好好聽, 好有feel; 聽左好一段時間之後, 係某日報紙見到, 原來呢首歌係外國係係葬禮播噶歌熱門排行第二(第一果首都好名, 但係唔記得左邊首了), 再諗返d歌詞, 其實都OK o岩用呢; 我都希望自己死左之後, 可以比到人歌中所唱噶人呢種感覺吧...

Live version -- Live都唱得好正。
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDURv8fj9dk

有歌詞版 -- 得d唔關事噶圖片, 但係有歌詞睇。播噶係碟版。
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-BW23Zwfko


Wind Beneath My Wings
Bette Midler

Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strain.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

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